ODOUR OF CHRYSANTHEMUMS
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reparation. There were the children -- but the
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children belonged to life. This dead man had
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nothing to do with them. He and she were only
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channels through which life had flowed to issue in
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the children. She was a mother -- but how awful
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she knew it now to have been a wife. And he, dead
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now, how awful he must have felt it to be a husband.
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She felt that in, the next world he would be a
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stranger to her. If they met there, in the beyond,
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they would only be ashamed of what had been
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before. The children had come, for some mysterious
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reason, out of both of them. But the children did
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not unite them. Now he was dead, she knew how
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eternally he was apart from her, how eternally he
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had nothing more to do with her. She saw this
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episode of her life closed. They had denied each
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other in life. Now he had withdrawn. An anguish
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came over her. It was finished then : it had become
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hopeless between them long before he died. Yet he
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had been her husband. But how little ! 21
" Have you got his shirt, 'Lizabeth ? " 22
Elizabeth turned without answering, though she
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strove to weep and behave as her mother-in-law
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expected. But she could not, she was silenced. She
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went into the kitchen and returned with the
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garment. 27
"It is aired," she said, grasping the cotton shirt
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here and there to try. She was almost ashamed to
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handle him ; what right had she or anyone to lay
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hands on him ; but her touch was humble on his
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body. It was hard work to clothe him. He was so
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heavy and inert. A terrible dread gripped her all
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the while : that he could be so heavy and utterly