ODOUR OF CHRYSANTHEMUMS
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A great dread and weariness held her : she was so
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unavailing. Her life was gone like this. 3
" White as milk he is, clear as a twelve-month
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baby, bless him, the darling ! " the old mother
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murmured to herself. " Not a mark on him, clear
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and clean and white, beautiful as ever a child was
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made," she murmured with pride. Elizabeth kept
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her face hidden. 9
" He went peaceful, Lizzie -- peaceful as sleep.
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Isn't he beautiful, the lamb ? Ay -- he must ha'
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made his peace, Lizzie. 'Appen he made it all
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right, Lizzie, shut in there. He'd have time. He
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wouldn't look like this if he hadn't made his peace.
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The lamb, the dear lamb. Eh, but he had a hearty
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laugh. I loved to hear it. He had the heartiest
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laugh, Lizzie, as a lad ---- "17
Elizabeth looked up. The man's mouth was
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fallen back, slightly open under the cover of the
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moustache. The eyes, half shut, did not show
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glazed in the obscurity. Life with its smoky burning
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gone from him, had left him apart and utterly alien
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to her. And she knew what a stranger he was to
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her. In her womb was ice of fear, because of this
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separate stranger with whom she had been living as
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one flesh. Was this what it all meant -- utter, intact
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separateness, obscured by heat of living ? In dread
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she turned her face away. The fact was too deadly.
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There had been nothing between them, and yet
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they had come together, exchanging their nakedness
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repeatedly. Each time he had taken her, they had
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been two isolated beings, far apart as now. He was
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no more responsible than she. The child was like ice
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in her womb. For as she looked at the dead man,