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English Review, 1911

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half shut, did not show glazed by the small candlelight. His wife
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looked at him. He seemed to be dreaming back, half awake.
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Life with its smoky burning gone from him, had left a purity
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and a candour like an adolescent's moulded upon his reverie.
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His intrinsic beauty was evident now. She had not been mis-
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taken in him, as often she had bitterly confessed to herself she
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was. The beauty of his youth, of his eighteen years, of the
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time when life had settled on him, as in adolescence it settles
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on youth, bringing a mission to fulfil and equipment therefor,
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this beauty shone almost unstained again. It was this adolescent
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"he," the young man looking round to see which way, that
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Elizabeth had loved. He had come from the discipleship of
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youth, through the Pentecost of adolescence, pledged to keep
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with honour his own individuality, to be steadily and un-
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quenchably himself, electing his own masters and serving them
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till the wages were won. He betrayed himself in his search for
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amusement. Let Education teach us to amuse ourselves,
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necessity will train us to work. Once out of the pit, there was
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nothing to interest this man. He sought the public-house,
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where, by paying the price of his own integrity, he found
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amusement; destroying the clamours for activity, because he
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knew not what form the activities might take. The miner
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turned miscreant to himself, easing the ache of dissatisfaction
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by destroying the part of him which ached. Little by little
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the recreant maimed and destroyed himself.

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It was this recreant his wife had hated so bitterly, had fought
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against so strenuously. She had strove, all the years of his
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falling off, had strove with all her force to save the man she had
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known new-bucklered with beauty and strength. In a wild
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and bloody passion she fought the recreant. Now this lay
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killed, the clean young knight was brought home to her.
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Elizabeth bowed her head upon the body and wept.

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She put her arms round him, kissed the smooth ripples
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below his breasts, bowed her forehead on him in submission.
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Faithful to her deeper sense of honour, she uttered no word of
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sorrow in her heart. Upright in soul are women, however they
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bow the swerving body. She owned the beauty of the blow.

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And all the while her heart was bursting with grief and
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pity for him. What had he suffered ? What stretch of horror
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for this helpless man ! She wept herself almost in agony. She
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had not been able to help him. Never again would she be able
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to help him. It was grief unutterable to think that now all
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was over between them. Even if it were a case of meeting in
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the next world, he would not need her there; it would be

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